Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Integral Assessment
As always, the loving-kindness exercise left me feeling happy, hopeful, and peaceful. It was easier to do the assessment because I wasn't so hard on myself; I could see myself objectively. the area I've decided to work on in self-regulation. While it is part of the biological aspect of my life, I can see how self-regulation, or my lack of self-regulation, is affecting the other aspects. For instance, I don't get enough sleep. I just can't seem to get to bed early enough to get a good night's sleep. I prefer to work out in the morning, and I have the time but because I don't go to bed early enough, I always oversleep. Because I'm tired, I have trouble staying mentally focused and things that ordinarily wouldn't bother me, affect me greatly. Because I'm tired, I'm not as productive at work and my relationships suffer because I'm down and withdrawn instead of my usual upbeat self. Wow, all of this because I haven't trained myself to go to bed when I'm tired. I haven't thought of any exercises yet to help me outside of contemplative practice, but I think that's a good start.
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The loving kindness meditation seemed to leave me happy, calm, and stress free as well. I am super hard on myself, it is one of my biggest flaws I think, and I beat myself up emotionally in regards to the integral assessment. It is so hard to get a lot of sleep while in school and dealing with everyday life, huh? I sure hope you get your sleeping patterns under control so you can get back to being peppy and building stronger relationships at work. I have to make myself check lists and agendas throughout the week and day in order to stay on tasks: if I don't I would never sleep! I don't know if you had tried that, but maybe it will help :)
ReplyDeleteI agree with both of you. This exercise was nice. I have not been successful with the previous exercises and was happy I got through this one with a smile. On sleeping, it is over rated!! That is what I tell myself every morning as I drag my self out of bed after about 4 hours of sleep. If I slept any longer I might miss something! :-) I have found if I don't dwell on the fact that I am lacking sleep it does not bother me as much. Just add another cup of coffee to the menu and hit the road again.
ReplyDeleteI think we all have areas that need work. I think I need to work on that aspect to, I stay up and it's a domino effect and the rest of the day and the people we come in contact are effected by it. I'm still struggling with this exercise but I am getting better than the first time I attempted it.
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I use to have the same problem. There was always something else that I can do before I went to bed. I just kept adding task after task and would wake up angry feeling that I had just went to sleep. Other areas of my life suffered because they expendable. Asking myself when, "was the last time I did .... ", made me get it together. I made time for the small things I had grown to ignore and forced myself to hit the bed rather I was tired or not. A full day was put in and it was time to rest. I found my mind just ticking away. That was my problem right there. I had become so use to doing things that my mind was in a routine and I did not know it. I was just going through the mental programed motions without really thinking about it. It had to take me some time to silence the ticking but it worked.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to read in your later post that your sleep regiment improves.